I should have stayed in school.

It’s good I moved out of the city.

I do not want to drink and smoke every day.

I feel sick and broken –
my best friend is in jail, again.

I want to focus on my work, my life’s work:

Painting, drawing, thinking, learning and teaching.

I want to go back to church, my soul is wretched and heavy.
only the lord can save me. –

Satan has his grips in all of my facets.

Temptation and sin have grown me weary.

I am not who I am anymore.

Art and love,
it’s all I know,
it is all I should be.